Early yesterday morning I stood at the back door of our house and watched a major electrical storm slowly move across the town. At times like that we usually shut the computers down and unplug them from the power sockets and work on our laptops.
But yesterday I just couldn’t bring myself to fire up the laptop - I seriously had lost my enthusiasm.
Toni wandered out of her office to see what I was doing and saw me standing there and asked her usual question:
“Watcha thinking?
“I’m just standing here composing my letter of resignation.” And I was … seriously.
I was standing there mentally writing a letter to myself explaining why I wanted to resign.
You see, over the last few months there has been a subtle shift in our business. We are no longer running our business - our business is running us and it is an absolute mongrel of a taskmaster.
By sheer coincidence a couple of weeks ago I picked up a copy of The E-Myth Revisited and the day before yesterday I actually got as far as reading the Introduction and I began to see that what has happened to our business … and the way I was feeling was not unique. Lots of people come to the same point that I had reached - and Toni had reached it too.
We had reached that point, not in the way that many small businesses do, but because several key writers had decided to quite and left us with unfinished projects that we have to complete. But regardless of why we had reached that point there was no doubt that we were on the brink of closing up shop.
We were sick of working long long hours every day of every week with very little light at the end of the tunnel.
Funnily enough, we had always known that this point could arise but several months back we had thought that we had managed to avoid that situation. We had begun to take weekends off and life looked pretty good. Unfortunately the wheel fell off and we got stuck.
However, that letter of resignation I was writing - and Toni was thinking about - got trashed yesterday morning. We’ve been down before and we’re damned if we are going to be beaten.
We decided to spend a couple of days thinking about where we want the business to go and how we want it to get there. We’re going to look at ways of reducing our dependence on outside writers (I can tell you that it’s a bit like herding cats) and at the same time increase our cash flow.
We’re going to actually look at doing something that we never ever thought we would do - and that’s dismiss some clients. There are a couple of regulars that have begun to let their accounts go unpaid and that’s affecting our ability to pay our accounts.
And tomorrow we’re going to sit down and over a coffee at our favourite cafe and have a brainstorming session. We want to recover that enthusiasm that we had for our business when we began and we’re not going to accept our resignations.
We’re a big fan of the old pop group - The Doors - and baby … no one gets out of our business alive!
As Toni said yesterday in a column she writes for another place - “I think we just declared war on ourselves”
And if you’re in a similar situation to us then stay tuned and get your own copy of The E-Myth Revisited - you might find it as much help as we are finding it.